How are you doing? As I met you yesterday, I can conclude that you are in a good condition. I am glad to see you yesterday.
Well, it has been 5 months. I believe that there some things happened in your life, right? Because there things that happened in mine, too.
There’s a thing I wish I could tell you directly. I want to say sorry. I know I already said that but I feel it is important to say like about this one.
I am sorry that I called you stupid once back then.
Do you remember about a year ago, when we talked about how our love life before with our friends? You said that you were still stuck on your ex for years. Me, who thought knowing everything, said “Hey, what are you doing? You haven’t moved on. That’s stupid. Good things will come ahead!” After a while, you said to me that the word STUPID has struck you and made you think.
In the end, I ended up falling in love with you who I called stupid.
Through this 5 months, I realize that you can’t easily say to people, “Hey, you should move on! Let him/her go!” Those just words. Like my friend said, "Funny thing, our lives are… there are a lot of people that might have told you about letting go and moving on. Most of them could have said it the way I said it. But we’ll never understand it until we experience it firsthand". So, thank God for your presence. I never regret to let you in in my life and my heart.
In the end, happy birthday, you! Hope you always be protected and be blessed.
Cuaca Bandung akhir-akhir ini sangat memanjakan. Terlebih bagi orang-orang yang sedang gelisah dengan kehidupannya. Entah karena pilihan, sesuatu yang hilang, atau sesuatu yang dirindukan.
Kelabu merupakan pertanda akan datangnya hujan. Warna ini muncul pada awan saat jumlah air didalamnya sampai pada titik jenuh. Manusia pada umumnya bereaksi dengan menyiapkan jaket atau payung atau dengan.. merenung.
Hujan adalah pertunjukan utamanya. Titik-titik air turun membasahi bumi. Tanah, selokan, jalan, semua basah. Di saat inilah kadang manusia tenggelam dalam diamnya sendiri-sendiri. Entah menunggu hujan, merutuki baju dan sepatu yang basah, atau… berdoa.
Dingin menyertai keduanya. Kelabu dan hujan. Saat inilah manusia mencari kehangatan. Entah dari jaket, pemanas ruangan, tiupan nafas sendiri atau bahkan… pelukan.
Sejak saya tahu hujan sebaiknya tidak dirutuki (karena Hadist Rasullullah SAW menyebut bahwa salah satu saat terbaik untuk berdoa adalah saat hujan turun), saya menanggapi hujan dengan berbeda.
Like they said, "There’s always a rainbow coming after the rain".
Memang saya masih gelisah. Hanya saja kali ini berbeda. Dulu, hujan membuat saya makin merutuki pilihan atau jalan hidup yang dijalani. Sekarang? Tuhan selalu di sisi saya, yang senantiasa memeluk meski kadang saya tak merasa dan mendengar setiap lantunan doa saya, khususnya pada salah satu saat berdoa yang terbaik, yaitu di setiap turunnya hujan.
“Patience is a hard discipline. It is not just waiting until something happens over which we have no control: the arrival of the bus, the end of the rain, the return of a friend, the resolution of a conflict. Patience is not a waiting passivity until someone else does something. Patience asks us to live the moment to the fullest, to be completely present to the moment, to taste the here and now, to be where we are. When we are impatient we try to get away from where we are. We behave as if the real thing will happen tomorrow, later and somewhere else. Let’s be patient and trust that the treasure we look for is hidden in the ground on which we stand.”—Henri Nouwen (via creatingaquietmind)
Di setiap periode atau masa, sebuah pelajaran pasti dapat dipelajari. Entah lewat peristiwa macam apa, baik maupun buruk.
Terima kasih untukmu.
Karenamu, aku jadi mengerti bahwa dua lebih baik daripada satu. Dua itu lebih membahagiakan dan menenangkan. Dua itu lebih damai. Dua itu lebih kuat. Kamu memberikan aku petunjuk tentang “Don’t give up on love”.
Hei, kamu…. Itulah yang telah kau bawa untukku. Terima kasih banyak yang tak terhingga.
May God hugs you with His warm arm so you shouldn’t anxious anymore. May God gives you His love so you can heal form the pain. May God bless you always day after day. May God heals your heart so you shouldn’t angry anymore.
Pernahkah kita sadar, “Hati-hati..” adalah harapan agar kita dapat bertemu lagi, “Jangan lupa makan..” adalah doa demi kesehatan, agar kita dapat selalu bersapaan, “Met tidur..” adalah keinginan untuk menjadi manusia yang terakhir berada dalam ingatan ketika mata mulai terpejam.
Banyak yang tersirat dari kalimat-kalimat sederhana yang kadang dianggap rutinitas. Pun bagi mereka yang mencibir, mereka hanya belum paham bahwa afeksi kadang tidak mengenal definisi harfiah..
“Makan, bangun, dan hati-hati sebetulnya adalah hal-hal yang tanpa perlu diingatkan pun akan dilakukan. Tentu ada hal lain yang ingin disampaikan ketika akhirnya tiga hal itu yang terucapkan.”—(via sayaurum)
This three words is commonly said by couples. For me, when there’s someone who romantically said, “I miss you”, it is a kind of legalization that we are matter for him.
I found that sometimes this phrase is kinda… sensitive.
How many times you say that to your lover? If you said that a few times, maybe your lover will ask, “do you miss me all this time? I never heard you say that to me for a long time.” If you said too much, maybe this will come out, “what the hell? i just met you an hour ago.” And then you can argue about who love who the most.
On the other side, like i said on my twitter account earlier. “Sometimes, saying I miss you makes me feel sadder that before.” It is true. It happened to me once. I remember I put blanket all over my body with a melancholic mood, thinking about how much I miss him.
Sometimes, I am scared to let him know. If I send my “I miss you” so many times, he will think that maybe I am not the kind of woman who can’t be left or I can’t be independent etc etc. Or my another concern is that the acknowledgement will make him sad.
Well, missing someone is a good thing. I never forget how relieved I am, after exhausting days, finally I met him. The best thing is seeing him smiling too when he knew I was coming. It just felt… beautiful.
There will be some difficult times or circumstances, make us to be not as fun as usual. That’s what God tries to say through the color of black and white.
I feel I really awful facing this “bad” dynamic with another person, for example: conflict or misunderstanding. I mean, I really worry that everything will not turn well in the end. What if, what if, what if…. Assumption is just killing me all the time.
"You shouldn’t think too much", he said once.
Well, I feel the first dynamic in this “friendship”. Honestly, I freaked out. Wondering how we can get through this dynamic. I realize (specifically) that when it comes to someone I care about, I always try too hard to be perfect in front of him, so I can ensure myself I will always have him.
"Love doesn’t work that way, honey", said my best friend.
It is my time to learn how to solve this insecurity issue, because as I am getting older, I know I can’t keep myself this way forever.
Because loving is about compromising and accepting whatever I am and whatever he is.
I can say, for the last 3 years, I have an issue toward relationship. Since I had some bad experiences about it, I thought that romantic relationship is something hard to have and maintain. I imagined it will be exhausting to have a man at your side.
I still have no idea about this man, but he gave me a hint. He gave me hope that there’s a man who will struggle so hard to adjust and compromise together with me. He gave me the possibility having a beautiful romantic relationship. He also gave me a clue that two people can get through anything ahead.
“The (500) Days of Summer attitude of “He wants you so bad” seems attractive to some women and men, especially younger ones, but I would encourage anyone who has a crush on my character to watch it again and examine how selfish he is. He develops a mildly delusional obsession over a girl onto whom he projects all these fantasies. He thinks she’ll give his life meaning because he doesn’t care about much else going on in his life. A lot of boys and girls think their lives will have meaning if they find a partner who wants nothing else in life but them. That’s not healthy. That’s falling in love with the idea of a person, not the actual person.”—Joseph Gordon-Levitt (via theflowershop)